“The moment I put that key in the door, everyone becomes me. Being is becoming all there is and ever will be from now until infinity. Putting that key in is making everyone you. The moment you put that in, you are meditating the universe of forms . All beings on every level , you are meditating them as yourself , not separate from you. They become you. Now that is going to require great compassion.”
Bernie Prior
Its amazing that it has been a week since my last blog post. What have I been ‘doing’ the last week?!
What have I been ‘doing’ certainly sums it all up. I have been discovering dishonesty – dishonesty in consciousness. And it is amazing. Its profoundly nourishing to see dishonesty and to allow the dissolving. Even the smallest of actions are becoming so transparent and revealing the souls urge to emerge the new. Structures and known ways of moving and behaving becoming fluid, flowing. An interest in beyond body mind shining more brightly.
What a gift after 12 months of Todd and I running the SHE Centre for other committed individuals to be here, The Form every day, heart sharing, activity of the day meetings and incredible creativity pouring through. And such profound love, transformation and understanding between us all and in the whole field. Deep gratefulness from the depths of my soul for the beloveds that are sharing this space with me right now….
Yesterday morning a resistance arose in me and I saw it and let it dissolve and show me the new. Opening in that, a seeing that a new level of self discovery was dropping in, a deep rootedness taking place at the same time. I could see that perception was changing, and there was a seeing that the discovery was around how that flows into form, from the formless opening right through into action and manifestation. I sat and shared this is at our heart meeting. I could see that the understanding had not manifested and its as though a deep calling for it was taking place.
A day of unfolding revelations and seeing a veil being revealed… I went down to a well known spiritual bookshop after a call from Todd and an invite from people there to come and share lunch. We broke bread and glorious Amsterdam cheeses together and shared, engaged and connected and yet there was what appeared to be a fine veil there in me, connecting and yet knowing such a deeper call of communion. That, that I was knowing was not flowing all the way through.
By the end of the day, such a deep allowance took place amidst such a fiery tender plea from someone that came from nowhere and seemed designed to reach and touch open a deeper place in me. Touching held distortion open, honesty to what to what I was experiencing, albeit it not so graceful. Compassion was the call, deeper, deeper, deeper compassion. Loving, tender, compassion.
I lay down in the opening and a Great Mother came flooding in, Amma who was beaten for the darker colour of her skin by her own family and relatives, and her incredible unbounded love and compassion. A cognition, only a very small inkling of what is asked to walk a true path of love and devotion. Where everything is let in…embraced
No matter how much you open the door to another, open it wider.
No matter how much you think you have given, give even more, from beyond your self.
Give, even though it may hurt, soften, even if its not received.
No matter how justified you feel, lay it to rest and embrace the other more deeply.
This is my blog for today….. I am in a beautiful fragile place, yet radiantly alive and open.
We did record two video blogs over the last week and I have posted them below… shows some of the journey over the last week here at SHE Centre – Amsterdam.
24th July -
26th July –
yvonne healy
August 8, 2010
hi beautiful… my son has me watching Zeitgeist! its scary just like the world ego its been really helpful to listen to your blogs about ego and limitation thankyou…. must watch matrix again…. love yvonne